Sunday, August 31, 2008

August 29

Today Daddy and I have been married for one year! And what a whirlwind of a year it has been. In some ways I can’t believe it has only been a year, and in others I feel like it was just yesterday that we were boarding the cruise ship for our destination wedding. I have heard it said that the first year of marriage is the hardest. I don’t see how that could be; Daddy and I had a wonderful first year and there wasn’t anything hard about it. As Daddy said, one down, a lifetime to go.

Daddy took me to see Mamma Mia tonight…I wanted to see it all summer, and it was so sweet of him to sit through such a girlie movie with me. There is a scene where the daughter is getting ready for her wedding and her mom is singing about how the time has slipped through her fingers. Something like that wouldn’t have gotten such a strong reaction from me before, but my perspective on so many things is different now. I started to tear up because I know, unless we get the big miracle, you and I will never share a day like that. While our relationship will be special, it won’t be typical of most mother daughter relationships. The major milestones, such as going to school, moving out, getting married and having children won’t happen for you. I probably would have been able to hold back the flood if Daddy hadn’t reached over to hold me. He knew without even seeing my tears what I was thinking and that I was hurting. And when I looked at him, I could tell he was just as sad for us as I was.

4 comments:

mizspontaneity said...

Hi Amber, I found your blog through your facebook profile. I just wanted to say hi and hurrah on your one-year anniversary. There isn't much I can say to give comfort, but I just wanted you to know how amazed I am at the journey you, Brad, and Audrey are on. Here's hoping for continued strength for you three musketeers. Elaine

Samantha said...

I miss you pretty girl. I want to see that baby soon!! Did you get my voicemail? :) Oh, I meant to tell you too, you have a package coming from Jason's parents :). We love you and miss you and I cant wait to see you. I've been away too long from my best friend.

Anonymous said...

My daughter also has SLOS, and I know what you mean about realizing the moments you WON"T have-like getting ready for her wedding. On the other hand, you will start to find other things that you will look forward to. For example, I was at the mall, and there was a woman walking through with arms linked with an adult child who was obviously mentally disabled. I just looked at them and smiled so big, and thought, "On day my little girl will walk through the mall with her arm linked with mine, just like them." She is now a beautiful six year old.

crystal lemond said...

Hi Amber , its Crystal LeMond i just wanted to tell u congratulations on Audrey, she is beautiful. I just had a baby girl on August the 22nd. Amanda and Monica told me about this blog and i wanted to tell you that you and Audrey are in my prayers . I dont have your email address but my email is crystalmahaffey@excite.com , email me .